Thursday, January 2, 2014

Happy New Year!

Ahh, a new year is here. There is so much excitement and hope that the new year brings. I'm really hoping that this year is my year. It's got to be. 

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The year started off great. We were with great friends, eating, laughing and having the best time. We came home from the NYE get together and my sister is in the living room with an awake little boy. *sigh* sleep isn't looking good for me this year.  It's about 1AM and I'm on the couch with a little boy who doesn't want to be put down. He finally let's me laying him down around 3am  {on the couch right next to me} about 3:30AM, no joke, Allyson's awake and crying for me. I was in there for about 1/2 hour and I came  back out and seriously considered just staying awake. I finally fell asleep and a very cranky boy woke up before 7. Conrad ended up not feeling well all day. This year wasn't starting out on the right foot already. Sick husband and kids that don't sleep, come on 2014. 

The 2nd wasn't much better. The kids went to sleep at about 8pm and I was in bed by 9:30. Mr. Austin woke up at 11:30 crying for his cup. I gave him a water bottle, tried giving him a drink out of my glass, and this was all after like 10 minutes of just ignoring him. An hour and half later, he's fast asleep until morning.{9:20!!!}

Almost like clockwork, Allyson woke up. She just cries and screams until I go in there, I love you too Allyson. I scoop her up, ask her what's wrong. It's usually nothing, just "I need you Mom", all that frustration leaves and my heart melts. I get her back in bed and tip toe off to my bed and pass out from exhaustion.  Thankfully they slept in, Aubrey got herself some breakfast while I enjoyed the extra sleep which was really nice. 

So over the last couple days, I was seeing people post their resolutions and word of the year. I started writing down want I wanted to do, how I hoped to grow, and things I wanted to do. I have it written all written down and ready to work on it. But I felt this tug to throw that list out the window. I felt this push to focus on JOY, being joy filled in every circumstance... even in those middle of the night wakings. I could really feel that God was giving me this to work on. 

I'm excited to see how this unfolds. 

oh and pray for me, no middle of the night wake ups from either child. thanks! 


Did you pick a word for the year?