Monday, December 31, 2012

40 weeks 4 days

Today Austin is 40 weeks and 4 days old.

I've held him in my arms just as long as I carried him in my womb. Time has flown!!

40 weeks 

40 weeks 4 days

I love you Austin James!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Guess who is 9 months...

1) How old is your baby?
9 months old

2) Stats

Clothing size: 12 months

Diaper size: cloths on size medium
Hair: Blonde
Eyes: Blue
Anything else you want to add:

3) Are they

Teething: He still has his four front teeth. He doesn't really let me look in his mouth but I don't think he's currently teething.
Talking: Dada, bababa and not too often mama. I can't wait until he calls me mama on purpose!
Rolling: he's a rolling machine.
Crawling: He's not crawling on all 4s and not really army crawling. He's kinda scooting around using his feet to push where he is wanting to go.
Walking: No way!

4) What they like

Toys: He's loving playing with all the new toys from Christmas
Books: Just about anything we read to the girls.
Song: Pat a cake
Anything else you want to add: He is just a big goof. He will smile for anyone.

5) What they dislike: He doesn't green beans. at all. 

Ways they like to be soothed: The same rocking, shhh-ing and patting. He definitely knows when he wants his mommy.
6) How are they sleeping? Eh. It's not great but it's better than the past (can you tell I'm trying to be positive?) He is up any where between 1-4 hours at night. On a good night he will give me a stretch from 1am - 4/4:30Am.
7) How are they feeding? He's nursing less and getting more soild foods. He likes pureed foods. He's pretty happy with those. He likes some table food. He doesn't seem like a fan of the stage 3 foods.

8) Nicknames – Bubbas , bubby, Austin Boston (Aubrey) AJ and A3 in texts
 9) What are you looking forward to the next month? I'm really curious to see how he's going to move next. Is he going to crawl on all fours or just skip over that and start pulling up.

10) How are you handling Motherhood?

Likes: I really love watching him grow. I love the connection that I have with him. That mother/son bond is just so special.

Dislikes: I miss sleeping through the night. One day Heidi, one day!  

Monthly Pic: 

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Gingerbread house and Cookie making

December has just flown by!! How is it the 27th?? Slow down time.

We decorated Gingerbread houses at Kathy's and that was fun for both the kiddos and us adults.

Little man in front of Amma's tree.

She did such a great job on her house

Austin watched and happily enjoyed stuffing his face full of graham crackers

Even Allyson decorated a house. BUT it wasn't until Amma sat down and helped her. 

the picture on the bottom right makes me smile every.time I see it. I asked her to smile for me and usually she just ignores me. She thought about it and then gave me a smile-ish. I love it! I really enjoyed watching her pick out the candy and placing it on the house. And she knew what candy she wanted. No! No! Yes! Oh this girl!!

I never took a picture of our finished houses :(  Mommy fail.

we also made sugar cookies YUM!

I wanted to make them from stratch but I decided to save myself some time and probably tears and just used the betty crocker stuff. Let me tell you that they came out pretty delish!! Mmm!!

Tess helped make cookies too but she didn't want me to post any pictures of her bc she doesn't like the way she looked. Silly Tessie you look just fine! But I will respect her wishes for now.

She looks so insanely grown up doesn't she?? My oh my!

Her Santa cookie :) She's growing up too fast. She doesn't need or want help doing things. It's bittersweet. My baby is growing up.

Monday, December 17, 2012

My struggle

I don't even know where to begin.

My heart is breaking for the families in CT. I seriously don't have the words to describe how I'm feeling. Just so saddened by it. Those parents waiting to hear if their child is safe. The things those students saw and heard. The brave things teachers did to save their students. The emergency crews that were there on the scene investigating. Seeing our President on TV like this. I just don't even know.

Aubrey was at school when I found out about it. It was so hard to hear that 27 were dead and 18 were children. Children just like my Aubrey. I wanted to run down to the school and scoop her out of her class just to hug her! I then had such guilt come over me. All of the times that I took her smile for granted. That I was upset with her for not doing some quick enough. I'm sure those parents would give anything to have that again. At noon I picked up Aubrey and hugged her so tight. When came home and I saw the Christmas tree and just lost it again. I, like most people, am looking forward to Christmas. Seeing Aubrey's face light up when she looks to see what Santa brought. Then Allyson came running in to see Aubrey and my heart broke again. What do you tell the brothers and sisters of those little kids? I can't even imagine...

Picking up Aubrey from kinder. 
She was just putting her seat belt on don't worry :) 

Aubrey asked if they could eat lunch in the playroom picnic style. I agreed. 

Hugging my little guy extra tight Friday afternoon

Being on Facebook this weekend has been extra hard. Every other post is about what happen. A picture of a teacher. Children's names along with their sweet faces. Anger about guns or mental health. Just so emotional for me. 

Just last month I was taking a break from FB because it was depressing me. I'm battling Postpartum Depression and PTSD from Austin's crazy birth. My journey through it hasn't been easy. In fact it's taken me months to admit to myself that something was even wrong. I felt like a bad mom for feeling the way I do/did. I had a great friend say something to me and she's been there for me. I've gotten help and it's still a daily struggle but I know I have the support of my husband and friends. 

I know a lot of this is just rambling but I needed to get a lot of it out. I've wanted to blog about my PPD but why? I don't know. Whatever. Maybe it will comfort someone else knowing they aren't alone in their struggles. Maybe it's just for me. Either way thanks for reading. 

I'm going to show my children more love and patience. I'm going to hug them just a few seconds longer and a little bit tighter. 

I know I'm not going to forget about what has happened at Sandy Hook last Friday. 
I pray that you treasure your family and friends a little bit more today. I know that I do. 

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Sunday, December 16, 2012

Show and Tell {Christmas Talk}

I'm linking up this week with Becky for her show and tell blog 

1. Tell us what your favorite thing about Christmas is.

I love being with family. Being together. Watching the kids enjoy the magic of Christmas. Seeing their excitement. Celebrating the birth of our Savior.  Christmas is the day that Conrad proposed to me so it's always a special thing to remember for me. There is just something about Christmas Day. It's like the longest day but in a good way. 

2. Tell us what your plans are for Christmas this year.
We will be celebrating with Conrad's Dad on Christmas Eve Day. Hopefully making it to church for the Christmas Eve service. Christmas morning opening presents here at home. Playing with all of the fun new things. Dinner with my Conrad's Mom and family and my Mom and sisters. 

 3. Show us a picture of Christmas in the past. Or present.

4. Do you wrap your presents all in one box, or do you like wrap each present separately?
Separately. It's just more fun that way!! 

5. Tell us about any special traditions that you or you and your family like to do.
This year we started the Elf of the Shelf. It's been so much fun!! Aubrey gets a kick out of looking for her. Allyson is starting to notice her. I can't wait for next year when she will hopefully care a little bit more! 
This year I also wrapped 25 Christmas/Winter books. That's been a lot of fun. I started a little late on the book train. We didn't have 25 books so I headed to the library and got some. Score!! 
We have an advent calendar.
We go church on Christmas Eve. 
Make ginger bread houses
The kids get Christmas jammies on Christmas Eve.  We leave milk and cookies out for Santa
Cookie decorating. 

It's been so fun watching the girls enjoy the Christmas season. I cannot wait to see their faces Christmas morning. I cannot believe Christmas is in 8 days!! We decorated gingerbread houses Sunday. Hopefully we will be baking and decorating cookies this week!! Aubrey's winter break starts tomorrow so we will have lots of time to get things done. 

Monday, December 10, 2012

Reading Club

I am one proud momma. 

A couple weeks ago Aubrey made it into reading club at school. 
To get into Kindergarten Reading Club she had to 

-Know all the letter names
-know all the letter sounds 
-read 20 words

The first student in each class to get into the club recieves a free shirt. Others that make it in have the chance to buy the shirt. My smartie pants was the first in her class to make it in! 

She wanted me to get the chalk board and take pictures with it. 
The club is actually called Be Excited About Reading or BEAR club for short. So that's why it says Bear club girl. 

I'm so proud of her. She can read so many words. It's amazing that she's in kindergarten and reading already. She tries to sound out words and spell words all the time. 

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Tuesday Night Rambles

My computer charger broke this week. Wouldn't you know bc I have a ton of pics to upload. So on my camera they sit.

We had a special visitor this last weekend, Ellie, our elf. Oh boy we are having so much fun with her. Aubrey loves waking up & looking for her each morning. Allyson could care less about Ellie. I'm not sure she's even noticed her.

Aubrey got into the reading club at school! I'm one proud mommy. I have pics of her in her cute little shirt on my stinkin camera.

Austin finally seems to be getting better. Oh my poor guy was so sick. He was playing on the floor today. He's laid down for 2 naps today in his PNP. He was more smiley. I missed his sweet smile.

I can't believe Christmas is 3 weeks from today! Eeek! I need to get that cute little guy a stocking still. We are pretty much finished with shopping stuff. Yay!!

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