Monday, December 31, 2012

40 weeks 4 days

Today Austin is 40 weeks and 4 days old.

I've held him in my arms just as long as I carried him in my womb. Time has flown!!

40 weeks 

40 weeks 4 days

I love you Austin James!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Guess who is 9 months...

1) How old is your baby?
9 months old

2) Stats

Clothing size: 12 months

Diaper size: cloths on size medium
Hair: Blonde
Eyes: Blue
Anything else you want to add:

3) Are they

Teething: He still has his four front teeth. He doesn't really let me look in his mouth but I don't think he's currently teething.
Talking: Dada, bababa and not too often mama. I can't wait until he calls me mama on purpose!
Rolling: he's a rolling machine.
Crawling: He's not crawling on all 4s and not really army crawling. He's kinda scooting around using his feet to push where he is wanting to go.
Walking: No way!

4) What they like

Toys: He's loving playing with all the new toys from Christmas
Books: Just about anything we read to the girls.
Song: Pat a cake
Anything else you want to add: He is just a big goof. He will smile for anyone.

5) What they dislike: He doesn't green beans. at all. 

Ways they like to be soothed: The same rocking, shhh-ing and patting. He definitely knows when he wants his mommy.
6) How are they sleeping? Eh. It's not great but it's better than the past (can you tell I'm trying to be positive?) He is up any where between 1-4 hours at night. On a good night he will give me a stretch from 1am - 4/4:30Am.
7) How are they feeding? He's nursing less and getting more soild foods. He likes pureed foods. He's pretty happy with those. He likes some table food. He doesn't seem like a fan of the stage 3 foods.

8) Nicknames – Bubbas , bubby, Austin Boston (Aubrey) AJ and A3 in texts
 9) What are you looking forward to the next month? I'm really curious to see how he's going to move next. Is he going to crawl on all fours or just skip over that and start pulling up.

10) How are you handling Motherhood?

Likes: I really love watching him grow. I love the connection that I have with him. That mother/son bond is just so special.

Dislikes: I miss sleeping through the night. One day Heidi, one day!  

Monthly Pic: 

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Gingerbread house and Cookie making

December has just flown by!! How is it the 27th?? Slow down time.

We decorated Gingerbread houses at Kathy's and that was fun for both the kiddos and us adults.

Little man in front of Amma's tree.

She did such a great job on her house

Austin watched and happily enjoyed stuffing his face full of graham crackers

Even Allyson decorated a house. BUT it wasn't until Amma sat down and helped her. 

the picture on the bottom right makes me smile every.time I see it. I asked her to smile for me and usually she just ignores me. She thought about it and then gave me a smile-ish. I love it! I really enjoyed watching her pick out the candy and placing it on the house. And she knew what candy she wanted. No! No! Yes! Oh this girl!!

I never took a picture of our finished houses :(  Mommy fail.

we also made sugar cookies YUM!

I wanted to make them from stratch but I decided to save myself some time and probably tears and just used the betty crocker stuff. Let me tell you that they came out pretty delish!! Mmm!!

Tess helped make cookies too but she didn't want me to post any pictures of her bc she doesn't like the way she looked. Silly Tessie you look just fine! But I will respect her wishes for now.

She looks so insanely grown up doesn't she?? My oh my!

Her Santa cookie :) She's growing up too fast. She doesn't need or want help doing things. It's bittersweet. My baby is growing up.

Monday, December 17, 2012

My struggle

I don't even know where to begin.

My heart is breaking for the families in CT. I seriously don't have the words to describe how I'm feeling. Just so saddened by it. Those parents waiting to hear if their child is safe. The things those students saw and heard. The brave things teachers did to save their students. The emergency crews that were there on the scene investigating. Seeing our President on TV like this. I just don't even know.

Aubrey was at school when I found out about it. It was so hard to hear that 27 were dead and 18 were children. Children just like my Aubrey. I wanted to run down to the school and scoop her out of her class just to hug her! I then had such guilt come over me. All of the times that I took her smile for granted. That I was upset with her for not doing some quick enough. I'm sure those parents would give anything to have that again. At noon I picked up Aubrey and hugged her so tight. When came home and I saw the Christmas tree and just lost it again. I, like most people, am looking forward to Christmas. Seeing Aubrey's face light up when she looks to see what Santa brought. Then Allyson came running in to see Aubrey and my heart broke again. What do you tell the brothers and sisters of those little kids? I can't even imagine...

Picking up Aubrey from kinder. 
She was just putting her seat belt on don't worry :) 

Aubrey asked if they could eat lunch in the playroom picnic style. I agreed. 

Hugging my little guy extra tight Friday afternoon

Being on Facebook this weekend has been extra hard. Every other post is about what happen. A picture of a teacher. Children's names along with their sweet faces. Anger about guns or mental health. Just so emotional for me. 

Just last month I was taking a break from FB because it was depressing me. I'm battling Postpartum Depression and PTSD from Austin's crazy birth. My journey through it hasn't been easy. In fact it's taken me months to admit to myself that something was even wrong. I felt like a bad mom for feeling the way I do/did. I had a great friend say something to me and she's been there for me. I've gotten help and it's still a daily struggle but I know I have the support of my husband and friends. 

I know a lot of this is just rambling but I needed to get a lot of it out. I've wanted to blog about my PPD but why? I don't know. Whatever. Maybe it will comfort someone else knowing they aren't alone in their struggles. Maybe it's just for me. Either way thanks for reading. 

I'm going to show my children more love and patience. I'm going to hug them just a few seconds longer and a little bit tighter. 

I know I'm not going to forget about what has happened at Sandy Hook last Friday. 
I pray that you treasure your family and friends a little bit more today. I know that I do. 

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Sunday, December 16, 2012

Show and Tell {Christmas Talk}

I'm linking up this week with Becky for her show and tell blog 

1. Tell us what your favorite thing about Christmas is.

I love being with family. Being together. Watching the kids enjoy the magic of Christmas. Seeing their excitement. Celebrating the birth of our Savior.  Christmas is the day that Conrad proposed to me so it's always a special thing to remember for me. There is just something about Christmas Day. It's like the longest day but in a good way. 

2. Tell us what your plans are for Christmas this year.
We will be celebrating with Conrad's Dad on Christmas Eve Day. Hopefully making it to church for the Christmas Eve service. Christmas morning opening presents here at home. Playing with all of the fun new things. Dinner with my Conrad's Mom and family and my Mom and sisters. 

 3. Show us a picture of Christmas in the past. Or present.

4. Do you wrap your presents all in one box, or do you like wrap each present separately?
Separately. It's just more fun that way!! 

5. Tell us about any special traditions that you or you and your family like to do.
This year we started the Elf of the Shelf. It's been so much fun!! Aubrey gets a kick out of looking for her. Allyson is starting to notice her. I can't wait for next year when she will hopefully care a little bit more! 
This year I also wrapped 25 Christmas/Winter books. That's been a lot of fun. I started a little late on the book train. We didn't have 25 books so I headed to the library and got some. Score!! 
We have an advent calendar.
We go church on Christmas Eve. 
Make ginger bread houses
The kids get Christmas jammies on Christmas Eve.  We leave milk and cookies out for Santa
Cookie decorating. 

It's been so fun watching the girls enjoy the Christmas season. I cannot wait to see their faces Christmas morning. I cannot believe Christmas is in 8 days!! We decorated gingerbread houses Sunday. Hopefully we will be baking and decorating cookies this week!! Aubrey's winter break starts tomorrow so we will have lots of time to get things done. 

Monday, December 10, 2012

Reading Club

I am one proud momma. 

A couple weeks ago Aubrey made it into reading club at school. 
To get into Kindergarten Reading Club she had to 

-Know all the letter names
-know all the letter sounds 
-read 20 words

The first student in each class to get into the club recieves a free shirt. Others that make it in have the chance to buy the shirt. My smartie pants was the first in her class to make it in! 

She wanted me to get the chalk board and take pictures with it. 
The club is actually called Be Excited About Reading or BEAR club for short. So that's why it says Bear club girl. 

I'm so proud of her. She can read so many words. It's amazing that she's in kindergarten and reading already. She tries to sound out words and spell words all the time. 

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Tuesday Night Rambles

My computer charger broke this week. Wouldn't you know bc I have a ton of pics to upload. So on my camera they sit.

We had a special visitor this last weekend, Ellie, our elf. Oh boy we are having so much fun with her. Aubrey loves waking up & looking for her each morning. Allyson could care less about Ellie. I'm not sure she's even noticed her.

Aubrey got into the reading club at school! I'm one proud mommy. I have pics of her in her cute little shirt on my stinkin camera.

Austin finally seems to be getting better. Oh my poor guy was so sick. He was playing on the floor today. He's laid down for 2 naps today in his PNP. He was more smiley. I missed his sweet smile.

I can't believe Christmas is 3 weeks from today! Eeek! I need to get that cute little guy a stocking still. We are pretty much finished with shopping stuff. Yay!!

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Friday, November 30, 2012

More sickness

Ahh the joys of motherhood.
My sweet little Austin is sick.
His tummy has been bugging him for the last week but he wasn't too much out of his normal. Still eating like normal. He's been warm not too hot. Last night he woke up super hot. Motrin didn't help his fever & he had this yucky cough all all of a sudden. He wasn't acting normal. Just kinda laying in my arms. No interest in eating even though he should have been starving. Just not himself. So Conrad & I both decided to take him to the ER. This is my first trip taking any of my kids.

Wouldn't you know as soon as we get to the ER this silly boy cools down, starts perking up a bit. Of course right?

My little guy waiting to be called in.

His ears, throat, and lungs were clear. He just had a fever of 102. So they gave him some Tylenol & wanted his fever to go down before we left. We waited & held my cranky little boy. People in the Emergency Room are ... Interesting. There was a drink guy who sounds like he was a regular there. He smelled like he bathed in beer. Yuck! Crazy loud people on their phones. Just fun with a sick little one. Austin's temp finally got to 100.4 & we were able to go home. They said its just something going around. I'm praying Allyson & Aubrey don't get whatever he might have.

He slept ok last night considering how he was feeling so bad. Today he's been asleep in my arms most of the day. He's nursed a few times but mostly just sleeping. Kinda scared for tonight. & he gets sick of course the week that we were getting him out of my arms for nap & bed. He took a teeny nap in his PNP this afternoon while I laid Allyson down.

When he's up he's not happy.

When he's asleep he's a sweet little angel.

I'm hoping all this sleep helps him feel better.

On a side note our Elf is making her debut tomorrow!!! Yay!!

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Thursday, November 29, 2012

Paula the Polar Bear

I'm seriously so behind on stuff it's ridicious and to top things off. My charger for both Conrad's computer and mine aren't working so after this catch up post my battery will probably be pretty close to dead and then no laptops until we get a new charger. Hopefully this weekend. Hello Amazon's 2 day shippin! 


We went to a pajama party story time at the mall. I thought it was going to be a lot different than it was. Apparently the Mall has partnered with National Geographic and will be doing something each month and this month was Polar Bears. I couldn't hear what was being said even though she was using a microphone, it was really muffled. So the kids watched this video on Polar Bears and I really don't think that many kids understood or followed along with it. It just didn't seem like it fit with the program that was advertised. Maybe I just had a different idea of what they would be doing. 

After the video they read a story. Aubrey and Cianna managed to wiggle their way to the front. (Probably because it was hard to hear the story.)  

Allyson had no desire to even participate what so ever. 
You are totally surprised by this right? Me too.

Austin was just so go with the flow. 

Afterward they pushed made their way to some tables and chairs for a couple crafts and a polar bear cookie and milk. There was absolutely NO room for me to squeeze and even be by Aubrey let along bring the double stroller over too. So I watched from afar while Aubrey was frustrated with the craft that they just passed out. It was one from Oriental Trading and it just wasn't something a 5 year old could do without help and again I was too far away to help. She didn't seem to mind though. 

Ryder and Austin being such good sports. 

Meeting Paula the Polar bear

After the craft people were able to make a line to get a gift from Paula. You would have thought that they were in line for bags of money. People pushing little kids out of the way all over a stuffed animal. Thankfully my sister was able to be in line so Aubrey wasn't pushed around. 

Aubrey and Cianna with their new bears

Allyson was pretty cute. I was taking Aubrey and Cianna's picture and she tried to sneak in. But when I asked her to stand with the big girls she walked away. Stinker!! 

Allyson watched Aubrey like a hawk and copies just about anything she does. Aubrey was spinning around with her bear and little Bug started to spin too. It was just too sweet. 

Austin even got a bear too. 

Austin and Ryder with their bears. 

Both Stephanie and I weren't too thrilled with the set up of things. It doesn't seem like it was planned out too well. Like the placing of the tables. The spacing of the tables.  There were a lot of other parents that weren't able to go near their big kid because they had their stroller and weren't able to squeeze their way in either. Thankfully none of that matter to Aubrey and she said she had a fun time and LOVES her new bear. 

Clifford the Big Red Dog

A few weeks back I had heard that Clifford the Big Red Dog was going to be at the library. I thought what a perfect little trip to make with Aubrey since she loves Clifford books and the TV show on PBS. 

The line was a crazy messy line. They had a book fair going on so it was weaving in and around the tables with books. It just was a lot going on. Luckily it didn't take too long to get to see Clifford. Right before our turn one of the volunteers had said something to Aubs about wearing a kitty hat to see a dog. Aubrey ripped her beanie of quickly. It was too funny. We reminded her that Clifford is a friendly dog and likes everyone including kitties so she put her beanie back on (thankfully because he hair was a MESS!) 

She loves meeting Clifford and giving him a hug. 

When we were leaving we stopped at the children's library and picked up a few Thanksgiving books. We were leaving and she told me that she had the best time EVER! It was sweet that something so simple brought her such great joy!

Monday, November 26, 2012

Austin is 8 months

How old is baby? 8 months 

Doctor’s appointments?:  January 2013 




Clothes size: He's in 9-12 or 12 month clothes

Diaper size: He's in cloth but if he needs a sposie it's size 3 

Hair color: Light blonde

Anything else?


Verbal skills: He loves to scream. Just kinda babble. He will have little conversations. He will babble and wait for you to talk. Then he will talk some more. So fun. 

Teething: He finally got his top two teeth. A total of 4 teeth now. 

Rolling: All over the place. 

Crawling: Not crawling yet. He's Still doing that rock on his knees thing. He kind rolls and twists his body where he needs to go.

Things he likes: He likes attention of any kind. Singing, clapping, or tickling this boy loves it. He smiles so big. He loves bath time too. 

Things he dislikes: Currently he doesn't like it if he's not glued to my hip or sitting in my lap.

Sleeping: He is a pretty crummy sleeper. We are working on it though. He ends up sleeping with me most nights.  Naps in my arms. Yes we are working on all of this. 

Eating: He eats 1-2 meals a day then nurses every few hours. He eat oatmeal and fruit every morning and usually a veggie in the afternoon. This boy loves to eat!! He still will not take a bottle. 

Nicknames: Bubba, Brother, hubba bubba and AJ 

Things we’re looking forward to next month: I cannot wait for Christmas!! Can't wait to watch him watch everyone  and everything around him. 

How I like motherhood: There are it's ups and downs and the ups make all the downs worth every single difficult second. I keep reminding myself that this too shall pass.

Likes: I like having them all together on floor just being together. I love seeing him look at his sisters. It makes me so excited for the future. 

Dislikes: Lack of sleep. He's up a lot at night.  I was getting more sleep when he was a newborn. He will only nap if he's held. It's hard to get things done when he's attached to me. Then I struggle with trying to enjoy him sleeping on me because I know he's not going to be little forever. Ugh, that mommy guilt kills me!! 

Here's my sweet prince who turned 8 months on  Thanksgiving Day! 


Allyson's Elmo Party

This year we had an Elmo party for Allyson. I was busy weeks before her party cricutting decorations. Look at how cute they  came out!! 

There were lots of Elmos, Mr. Noodles and Dorthorys around the house.

My sister curled Aubrey's hair. She looked so darn adorable. 

Allyson was quite the party pooper. She didn't want to play any of the games. We had the kids dance to the Elmo Slide. Allyson loves this song and was a stinker and didn't want to dance. We played another game and she wanted nothing to do with it. 

Opening presents was a little better but not by much. She was having fun doing her thing. 

It was time for cupcakes! 
I made some Elmo cupcakes. 

It was all good until we sang happy birthday and she lost it. She HATED it. Cried like someone was hurting her. It was both funny and sad. Poor thing. We gave her the cupcake and she said "Eww!" She wanted nothing to do with frosting. What kid doesn't like frosting?? Allyson of all little kids. 

We had fun celebrating our little bug. I can't believe she's two and we have survived those first two years. 

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Saturday Night randoms

It's been what feels like forever since I'm sat down and typed ANYTHING. Austin is asleep in his bed for now so here are some just random thoughts

1. We had a great Thanksgiving this year. We went to my MIL like usual. Ate yummy food and just hung out with family. The girls running around and Austin just hanging out with who ever will hold him and possibly give him some food.

2. Austin is a really crummy sleeper. He has good night and then bad nights. More bad than good. I keep trying to remind myself that this is just a season but it's really wearing me down.

3. We put or Christmas tree up yesterday along with some other decorations. We decorated the tree this afternoon and I just love it. I love our fake tree, it's so pretty.

4. Conrad and I did some Christmas shopping on Friday. We weren't hardcore and out at midnight or even 6AM but we did some shopping. We did more today and we are pretty much finished with the kiddos. Just need some stocking stuffers. YAY!

5. I  can't wait to start a new tradition this year Elf on the Shelf. I'm way too excited. I've been pinning stuff like crazy, sorry friends.  I know Aubrey is just going to love it. I even bought our elf a little skirt! I think we are going to do it a little differently though. Not reporting  I think our elf will be arriving on December 1st. I can't wait!!

So I guess sleep and Christmas are all that's really on my mind. lol. I'm off to go plan what our little elf is going to do each night. Here's a picture of my little guy at Target with us on Friday.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Halloween 2012

We had such fun on Halloween this year.

Aubrey was Rapuntzel from Tangled. Aubrey looked so stinkin cute. She acted like such a diva when ever she had that dress on. She lived in it the days after Halloween too.

Allyson was a bumblebee but she wasn't to thrilled at having me take her picture. So I have a couple blurry ones, a few of the top of her head because she wouldn't look at me while I was holding the camera and a million of her back side!

Doing some trick or treating during the day

Trick or treat fun at church!

We tried to get a picture of me and the three ... it wasn't working.

Allyson had the BEST time in the jump house. She would just jump and fall and just laugh and laugh. Such a sweet sound. She was in there for the last 15-20 minutes of the church event just her by herself. She was in heaven! I hated having to crawl in there and get her out.

Aubrey and Cianna racing on the trikes

Such a fun filled day!!